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This is the most I've ever used this thing. But I have a lot of feelings about this apparently.
I'm still trying to process the whole Hux thing. Because that still hurts, especially knowing that bit of backstory about Pryde being Brendol's friend. I really wish he could have had a better death. I know at least this way it's easy to write him back to life. I just hate that he's officially dead. And that one of his abusers killed him.
The thing I think that sorta added to the pain is that I was so used to fandom's interpretation of Hux. A scary, competent general. And even our interpretation of Kylo and Hux's relationship. To see Kylo treated him so poorly stung. Because I was so used to seeing them in a different way, because of all the amazing people of Kylux. I'd like to believe that Hux was meant to have a slightly different arc, one where he and Kylo did get along at least a little.
But I realize that Hux is not a main character by any means and not someone most fans care about. Some fans still don't even know who Hux is. They don't know his past. So of course they just killed him off and got him out of the way of the plot. And that was the quickest, easiest way to do it and I'm sure no one considered what it meant to have Hux die the way he did for those who do know his backstory. The audience isn't supposed to feel much of anything for Hux. He even admits he's doing it just to get back at Ren. He's a petty asshole.
I was thinking about how I came to care for this character who gets so little screen time and is clearly not cared about by the writers of the movies. And that's why I want to say thank you to the fans. Because it was all of you who took this minor character, put so much more feeling and emotion into, fleshed him out in a way that the movies never would. And you made me care about Hux more than I ever thought possible and that is such a cool thing.
I didn't really care for Hux at first. I liked him and Kylo together, but alone, I thought Hux was meh. Slowly, I started to admit to myself that yes, I did ship these two terrible assholes, and then I started to allow myself to like Hux. Just a little bit. I think it was only earlier this year that I really started to like him on his own. A big part of this was fandom's enthusiasm for him. And of course, the Hux comic. That was such a fun experience. And now, I've totally flipped. I care far more about Hux than Kylo right now. At least, as far as caring about their deaths, I care far more about Hux's and I never expected that. So thank you everyone who helped me experience this by making Hux such an interesting and fun character.
And he's ours now. We can do whatever we want with him in fanon. He survived, he wore armor, he killed Pryde instead, none of that ever happened, it was just a bad dream... we have so many ways to keep this character (and Kylo) alive. There are still so many things to explore with Hux and I can't wait to read all the fics and see the art. And even exploring their deaths I think will be nice eventually. The idea that they died so close in time to each other is... not sweet, but it's something. I'm not quite ready for that. But someday, I will be.
I'm still trying to process the whole Hux thing. Because that still hurts, especially knowing that bit of backstory about Pryde being Brendol's friend. I really wish he could have had a better death. I know at least this way it's easy to write him back to life. I just hate that he's officially dead. And that one of his abusers killed him.
The thing I think that sorta added to the pain is that I was so used to fandom's interpretation of Hux. A scary, competent general. And even our interpretation of Kylo and Hux's relationship. To see Kylo treated him so poorly stung. Because I was so used to seeing them in a different way, because of all the amazing people of Kylux. I'd like to believe that Hux was meant to have a slightly different arc, one where he and Kylo did get along at least a little.
But I realize that Hux is not a main character by any means and not someone most fans care about. Some fans still don't even know who Hux is. They don't know his past. So of course they just killed him off and got him out of the way of the plot. And that was the quickest, easiest way to do it and I'm sure no one considered what it meant to have Hux die the way he did for those who do know his backstory. The audience isn't supposed to feel much of anything for Hux. He even admits he's doing it just to get back at Ren. He's a petty asshole.
I was thinking about how I came to care for this character who gets so little screen time and is clearly not cared about by the writers of the movies. And that's why I want to say thank you to the fans. Because it was all of you who took this minor character, put so much more feeling and emotion into, fleshed him out in a way that the movies never would. And you made me care about Hux more than I ever thought possible and that is such a cool thing.
I didn't really care for Hux at first. I liked him and Kylo together, but alone, I thought Hux was meh. Slowly, I started to admit to myself that yes, I did ship these two terrible assholes, and then I started to allow myself to like Hux. Just a little bit. I think it was only earlier this year that I really started to like him on his own. A big part of this was fandom's enthusiasm for him. And of course, the Hux comic. That was such a fun experience. And now, I've totally flipped. I care far more about Hux than Kylo right now. At least, as far as caring about their deaths, I care far more about Hux's and I never expected that. So thank you everyone who helped me experience this by making Hux such an interesting and fun character.
And he's ours now. We can do whatever we want with him in fanon. He survived, he wore armor, he killed Pryde instead, none of that ever happened, it was just a bad dream... we have so many ways to keep this character (and Kylo) alive. There are still so many things to explore with Hux and I can't wait to read all the fics and see the art. And even exploring their deaths I think will be nice eventually. The idea that they died so close in time to each other is... not sweet, but it's something. I'm not quite ready for that. But someday, I will be.
